So for some reason blogger wouldn't let me sign in for the longest time. so i have a lot to catch up on.
well, first off, i graduated. duh. that was an amazing day, let me tell you. it was windy and sunny, so we kept staring into the sun, and our tassels/mortarboards kept trying to fly off. but i felt so proud for our class, and our town, and all of that. too bad my grandmother couldn't come: she has cancer again. and it doesn't look good. it's in her bones, which....i dunno. she's taking chemotherapy through pills, which is interesting because she doesn't have to go out to a clinic to do the chemo; just takes these pills four times a month. i sure hope she is going to be okay. i am dreading the day..............
and so with my graduation that means band is now over too. poop. i still think i'm kind of in denial; i just can't let it go. and, on top of that, the band director, my band director, Mr. B, the one person who made my life freaking awesome through band, is no longer the band director. it was such a shock; 25 years, and all of a sudden he's just up and out. i don't know if the administration just told him that he would go, or that he decided to step down, or maybe a combination of the two.... it just depresses the hell out of me. i mean, okay. think of the one teacher that you absolutely LOVED; i mean, your favoritist ever. that was my band director to me. i'm going to wittenberg university in the fall for music education; i want to be the first female band director at my high school, just putting that out there. but if it wasn't for mr. b, i probably wouldn't be going there. he helped me sooooooo much with my audition, getting music, and practicing, he didn't have to do all that. but he did. and he even took me down there for the audition!! i mean, three hours one way, that's just crazy. i love him to death and i have him to thank for making this what it was. and now he's gone. i think he's going to the elementary schools, but i don't know for sure. if he is, that would be sweet cause i could still see him. i just hope this all doesn't make it awkward between us, because marching band is what held us together, and now that's not there anymore. Ugh. this is so frustrating. i wish he would talk to me. he just sent me one email telling me that he was sorry that he didnn't feel comfortable coming to my grad party. that's it. i've sent him about five or six emails over the past two weeks, but they went ignored. i just want him to talk to me.
so i'm getting a new laptop. within about a week. hopefully i can keep this updated a bit more often, eh? its custom built, with my dad's input to the company. i'm so happy he did that for me. i mean, they could have bought me just some crap pc from best buy or something, but my dad wanted to make sure i was happy with it and it would do exactly what i wanted it for.
right now i'm at jessi's house. i stayed the night. she has a drum meeting at the school right now, but i saw shep and i said SEE YA'LL LATER!! i kind of feel bad now. but i love her to death. we went bike riding yesterday, and happened to see the lady that used to take care of us through daycare. i mean, these are some of the earliest memories i have. and we saw her. we even got to go through her house, seeing the old rooms where we took our naps; our playroom; our basement/classroom; man it was awesome. we went through some of her pictures and reminisced. fun stuff.
alright. i think i might be done for this post. but i couldn't be sure. adios muchachos. talk later. my wrists hurt.
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