finally, the first week of classes is done.
finally.
i was actually pretty pleased with how things went. my string methods class looks to be more work than is really necessary. and my education class is going to give me carpel tunnel, taking notes for an hour and a half. but other than that, i really love my classes. dr. b is actually acting like a human being... shocking, i know. and kazez... well, it's still kazez. i've got some reading and work to do, but thankfully it's nothing too heavy yet.
one thing i am kind of surprised about is how busy i am outside of class. now that there are more people on campus that i know, more people hang out with me. it's kind of cool actually, i don't have to eat by myself in the cdr. and another thing that blows my mind - a kid from elyria high is going here now too! he graduated last year and i know of him because he was in choir and stuff in high school, so we sometimes ran into each other with my band geekedness in the music office too. it's kind of nice actually, to see someone from a familiar place.
rachel and i went to see pocket lint tonight. for those that don't know, it's a comedy troupe on campus and they do a lot of games similar to whose line is it anyway. and if any of you remotely know me, you know that i LOVE whose line. so this was absolutely perfect. all the actors were really great, spot on and funny of course. if i had more time, i would TOTALLY do it. alas - so is the life of a music major.
oh hey, i think my movie is done loading.
done for now!
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
fisherman's feast
note to self - don't ever play Whose Line Is It Anyway videos in the music office... dr. schubert walked in right as ryan was saying, "take a look at my testicles!" so naturally it was a little awkward.
so i've cried twice in three days. yesterday afternoon my mom called before our marching band techniques class and told me that my great aunt died. i don't even know why it hit me that hard - i haven't seen her in over a year, and yet i was balling in the lounge. and then had to go into class still snuffling and teary. god it was bad. i asked off work for the rest of the day, thank goodness that marching band was my last class. so basically i went back to my dorm and tried to concentrate on homework or whatever but it didn't really work. thankfully lauren and brien and i hung out for a while last night so i could be distracted and not by myself. i might have to miss a couple days of school because i am going to go home for the funeral. not sure if it's going to be this weekend or next week.
ugh i am not a fan of tuesdays and thursdays. first of all, i have to wake up to be at class at 8 frickin 30 in the morning. then i have three hours to kill before i get to sit through mrs. stamguts strings methods. and then - i get to take notes for an hour and a half in my education class about child development.
tonight savannah and i played racketball for about an hour, and then went back to her dorm and colored. coloring therapy really helps sometimes. so that's our thursday routine.
thank GOD tomorrow is friday. and then the weekend. catch up on some sleep... catch up on some homework...relax a little... ahhhhh.
gotta go read about bach and handel... yay...
so i've cried twice in three days. yesterday afternoon my mom called before our marching band techniques class and told me that my great aunt died. i don't even know why it hit me that hard - i haven't seen her in over a year, and yet i was balling in the lounge. and then had to go into class still snuffling and teary. god it was bad. i asked off work for the rest of the day, thank goodness that marching band was my last class. so basically i went back to my dorm and tried to concentrate on homework or whatever but it didn't really work. thankfully lauren and brien and i hung out for a while last night so i could be distracted and not by myself. i might have to miss a couple days of school because i am going to go home for the funeral. not sure if it's going to be this weekend or next week.
ugh i am not a fan of tuesdays and thursdays. first of all, i have to wake up to be at class at 8 frickin 30 in the morning. then i have three hours to kill before i get to sit through mrs. stamguts strings methods. and then - i get to take notes for an hour and a half in my education class about child development.
tonight savannah and i played racketball for about an hour, and then went back to her dorm and colored. coloring therapy really helps sometimes. so that's our thursday routine.
thank GOD tomorrow is friday. and then the weekend. catch up on some sleep... catch up on some homework...relax a little... ahhhhh.
gotta go read about bach and handel... yay...
Monday, August 24, 2009
was i a fool to think?
today was the first day of classes, things went well, nothing majorly awesome so i won't waste time talking about all that nonsense.
what i wanted to write about may seem inconsequential to most people... but for some reason it really affected me.
i went to play racketball with lauren and brien this evening. we played for almost 2 hours, and you can bet all of us were pretty pooped after we finished. so we decided to go to sonic to get something to cool down.
on the way, lauren was fiddling with her ipod and came across the song Defying Gravity from the musical Wicked. i'm not very familiar with the song or play, so i just kind of listened. but brien and lauren totally belted it out, sing like no one's listening kind of stuff. so we're just cruising along, jamming to the song and heading to sonic.
and all of a sudden - i'm crying.
first of all, i don't like crying in front of people so i hardly ever do it. and i'm uncontrollably leaking tears. wtf?! i mean, it's like the quintessential college picture... playing some game with your best buddies, singing your hearts out to a fantastic song in the car, and on your way to get ice cream. i think if someone could have taken a picture at that moment we could have marketed it and made billions!
i think part of it is that some emotional stuff has happened in the recent past, and i didn't really ever cry about stuff. oh yeah i cursed and kicked things and pouted and vowed revenge and became nostalgic and sad, but i realized that earlier tonight i was crying tears of fricking JOY.
it really shook me.
sorry, i just really had a "girl" moment, as katalin would say, i just needed to write it down i think. i'm still shaking my head.
jeez life is complicated.
what i wanted to write about may seem inconsequential to most people... but for some reason it really affected me.
i went to play racketball with lauren and brien this evening. we played for almost 2 hours, and you can bet all of us were pretty pooped after we finished. so we decided to go to sonic to get something to cool down.
on the way, lauren was fiddling with her ipod and came across the song Defying Gravity from the musical Wicked. i'm not very familiar with the song or play, so i just kind of listened. but brien and lauren totally belted it out, sing like no one's listening kind of stuff. so we're just cruising along, jamming to the song and heading to sonic.
and all of a sudden - i'm crying.
first of all, i don't like crying in front of people so i hardly ever do it. and i'm uncontrollably leaking tears. wtf?! i mean, it's like the quintessential college picture... playing some game with your best buddies, singing your hearts out to a fantastic song in the car, and on your way to get ice cream. i think if someone could have taken a picture at that moment we could have marketed it and made billions!
i think part of it is that some emotional stuff has happened in the recent past, and i didn't really ever cry about stuff. oh yeah i cursed and kicked things and pouted and vowed revenge and became nostalgic and sad, but i realized that earlier tonight i was crying tears of fricking JOY.
it really shook me.
sorry, i just really had a "girl" moment, as katalin would say, i just needed to write it down i think. i'm still shaking my head.
jeez life is complicated.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
brown chicken brown cow
just wanted to write a short update...
training finished last tuesday, and i got my official t-shirt and "it's not about me" button. i still need to attach it to my bookbag.
wednesday was awesome - we met with the ra's in the morning, which was kinda pointless because nobody really knew what we were supposed to be talking about, and then we had the rest of the day free. i took my scholarship check over to financial aid, picked up my books, and deposited my personal checks. savannah and i went to walmart to pick up a few various things.
thursday, the freshmen came. oh god the freshmen. it wasn't as bad as last year... instead of everyone coming at the same time, it was more spaced out. i handed everyone their "new student days" packet, which was cool because i met practically every freshman that came to ferncliff hall. the rest of the day i just kind of sat around, watched a movie, relaxed, etc. had to go to a hall meeting that night to introduce ourselves as peer helpers to the ferncliff freshmen.
friday... hmm, what did i do friday. well i slept in really late, which was awesome. went for a late lunch with katalin, and we chatted until we were the last ones in the cdr, haha. then i just hung around again. it's really nice to not have anything to do!!! lauren came over friday night and we hung out for a long time. she didn't leave until like 2am.
as you can clearly see, we are goofballs.
saturday was mostly spent in anticipation of diko getting here. i mean, its nice to have a room all to yourself, but i missed her! she's a good friend, and i was so excited for her to come. finally, about 5:30, she got onto campus so i helped her move in and get our room organized.
it's very pink. pink carpet, pink chair, pink closet organizers... ahhhhh. later that night, after diko gave up trying to iron all her clothes, we went to see "I Love You, Man" in commencement hollow. it was an alright movie... funny and immature... typical, you know. we met up with some of the international students and got to see their apartment. didn't get home until like 12am, lol.
today we went to brunch with a few friends and then went to target and payless. picking up various things... got a mirror, fan, diko got a desk lamp and more hangers. finally finished watching When Harry Met Sally, which i've been trying to see for like two days and every time something comes up and i can't finish it.
well we're going to have a 6th floor girls reunion tonight, so this'll be it for now.
updates soon on classes!!
training finished last tuesday, and i got my official t-shirt and "it's not about me" button. i still need to attach it to my bookbag.
wednesday was awesome - we met with the ra's in the morning, which was kinda pointless because nobody really knew what we were supposed to be talking about, and then we had the rest of the day free. i took my scholarship check over to financial aid, picked up my books, and deposited my personal checks. savannah and i went to walmart to pick up a few various things.
thursday, the freshmen came. oh god the freshmen. it wasn't as bad as last year... instead of everyone coming at the same time, it was more spaced out. i handed everyone their "new student days" packet, which was cool because i met practically every freshman that came to ferncliff hall. the rest of the day i just kind of sat around, watched a movie, relaxed, etc. had to go to a hall meeting that night to introduce ourselves as peer helpers to the ferncliff freshmen.
friday... hmm, what did i do friday. well i slept in really late, which was awesome. went for a late lunch with katalin, and we chatted until we were the last ones in the cdr, haha. then i just hung around again. it's really nice to not have anything to do!!! lauren came over friday night and we hung out for a long time. she didn't leave until like 2am.
as you can clearly see, we are goofballs.
saturday was mostly spent in anticipation of diko getting here. i mean, its nice to have a room all to yourself, but i missed her! she's a good friend, and i was so excited for her to come. finally, about 5:30, she got onto campus so i helped her move in and get our room organized.
it's very pink. pink carpet, pink chair, pink closet organizers... ahhhhh. later that night, after diko gave up trying to iron all her clothes, we went to see "I Love You, Man" in commencement hollow. it was an alright movie... funny and immature... typical, you know. we met up with some of the international students and got to see their apartment. didn't get home until like 12am, lol.
today we went to brunch with a few friends and then went to target and payless. picking up various things... got a mirror, fan, diko got a desk lamp and more hangers. finally finished watching When Harry Met Sally, which i've been trying to see for like two days and every time something comes up and i can't finish it.
well we're going to have a 6th floor girls reunion tonight, so this'll be it for now.
updates soon on classes!!
Monday, August 17, 2009
you can't float on snow
this post is going to be super long, so i feel like i need to preface it with an "it's okay to skim" disclaimer.
listening to: The Stone, DMB
Up And Away, DMB
Boris The Spider, The Who
Crazy Little Thing Called Love, Queen
Jurassic Ark, The Ringling 5
Christmas Medley, RENT
Drive In, Drive Out, DMB
Don't Stand So Close To Me, The Police
in just the past week, things have changed so radically. last monday was my birthday, and it passed without much fanfare. i went to dinner with my brother, which was really awesome.
tuesday i didn't do anything but pack. i got ALL my clothes into one suitcase, i was so impressed with myself. i knew i took too many clothes last year, so i really tried to be conservative. my suitcase still weighed a ton.
wednesday mom and i went out to eat lunch with my grandma. i love spending time with my grandma. she told us about my aunt ethel, who is in the hospital in florida. she's had a blood clot, cracked a few ribs, and now has a "mass" in her side, whatever that means. unfortunately it doesn't look like there is much time left. sad sad sad face. and then.... more packing.
thursday was the best day ever. i went to lunch with my sister in law and mom at red lobster, YUM. after that, i met up with kelly to go to east rec for old times sake.
it was kinda awkward cause two of the lifeguards i knew from school and they didn't like talk to us or anything... we were just like, ohhey we're here to swim... after that we went to brenda's for an AWESOME dinner - chicken parmesan, salad and bread...yummy yummy yummy!!!!
then we went to steph's house for a bonfire and ice cream cake. holy crap it was amazing. the crunchies and fudge are the best.
then we stoked the fire and played apples to apples. oh good times. apples to apples is definitely my favorite game.
friday, i visited Moen to see the marching band. it was alright. very wierd to be there without knowing many people... the last "generation" that i taught is graduating this year. later in the day, i met up with my pastor and we had a really good talk. it's so nice that i have someone i can go to and talk to. i feel better about a lot of things. friday afternoon, i went to jessica's house and hung out with her and her mom until the library lock-in. i felt exceedingly old, because it was mostly like junior high kids, but it was still fun with jess. and so saturday morning i came home ridiculously early and sleep deprived. i took a few naps, haha, and packed up the rest of my stuff and the car.
sunday morning i got on campus a little after 10, unpacked relatively quickly, and had lunch with my mom. surprisingly i didn't cry at our goodbye. savannah and i headed up to peer helper training. the first day was mostly about getting to know the others and techniques of how to get to know people. i was really exhausted yesterday and went to bed before 11, haha.
today we talked about conversation, questions, non-verbal cues, and helping a person make a decision. many of the things we talked about are really helpful and i'll definitely be able to use them. we finished training early, which was REALLY awesome. finished a little before 7.
and here i am! relaxing in my dorm room, jammin' to some good tunes, getting ready to go to bed. tomorrow i have to be up early again... looks like i won't be able to sleep in for a while but wednesday we only have one thing scheduled and it's in the morning, so i have the rest of the day to take care of all the other things i have to do.
i called benford tonight and he actually answered! we had a really great conversation. we talked about my starting a pep band of some sort on campus, and i am really going to work on it. just think how that would look on my resume!! i've noticed recently that he is talking to me more like an equal, and dare i say, a colleague, rather than a student. he was telling me things about marching band and directors and all kinds of stuff. and it wasn't the goofy, random stuff that we usually discuss. this conversation had a point and it went somewhere. and the more i learn i find i can talk to him almost like a colleague too. gosh, imagine what that would be like, to call him a colleague someday. gosh! and he made me aware again that that is realistically only three years away. three years from now i could potentially be starting my own classroom. scary to think about.
so overall, things have been fantastic. i'm back at school, loving it, and looking forward to so many things. hopefully i'll be able to write again soon, keep things updated.
adios for now!
listening to: The Stone, DMB
Up And Away, DMB
Boris The Spider, The Who
Crazy Little Thing Called Love, Queen
Jurassic Ark, The Ringling 5
Christmas Medley, RENT
Drive In, Drive Out, DMB
Don't Stand So Close To Me, The Police
in just the past week, things have changed so radically. last monday was my birthday, and it passed without much fanfare. i went to dinner with my brother, which was really awesome.
tuesday i didn't do anything but pack. i got ALL my clothes into one suitcase, i was so impressed with myself. i knew i took too many clothes last year, so i really tried to be conservative. my suitcase still weighed a ton.
wednesday mom and i went out to eat lunch with my grandma. i love spending time with my grandma. she told us about my aunt ethel, who is in the hospital in florida. she's had a blood clot, cracked a few ribs, and now has a "mass" in her side, whatever that means. unfortunately it doesn't look like there is much time left. sad sad sad face. and then.... more packing.
thursday was the best day ever. i went to lunch with my sister in law and mom at red lobster, YUM. after that, i met up with kelly to go to east rec for old times sake.
it was kinda awkward cause two of the lifeguards i knew from school and they didn't like talk to us or anything... we were just like, ohhey we're here to swim... after that we went to brenda's for an AWESOME dinner - chicken parmesan, salad and bread...yummy yummy yummy!!!!
then we went to steph's house for a bonfire and ice cream cake. holy crap it was amazing. the crunchies and fudge are the best.
then we stoked the fire and played apples to apples. oh good times. apples to apples is definitely my favorite game.
friday, i visited Moen to see the marching band. it was alright. very wierd to be there without knowing many people... the last "generation" that i taught is graduating this year. later in the day, i met up with my pastor and we had a really good talk. it's so nice that i have someone i can go to and talk to. i feel better about a lot of things. friday afternoon, i went to jessica's house and hung out with her and her mom until the library lock-in. i felt exceedingly old, because it was mostly like junior high kids, but it was still fun with jess. and so saturday morning i came home ridiculously early and sleep deprived. i took a few naps, haha, and packed up the rest of my stuff and the car.
sunday morning i got on campus a little after 10, unpacked relatively quickly, and had lunch with my mom. surprisingly i didn't cry at our goodbye. savannah and i headed up to peer helper training. the first day was mostly about getting to know the others and techniques of how to get to know people. i was really exhausted yesterday and went to bed before 11, haha.
today we talked about conversation, questions, non-verbal cues, and helping a person make a decision. many of the things we talked about are really helpful and i'll definitely be able to use them. we finished training early, which was REALLY awesome. finished a little before 7.
and here i am! relaxing in my dorm room, jammin' to some good tunes, getting ready to go to bed. tomorrow i have to be up early again... looks like i won't be able to sleep in for a while but wednesday we only have one thing scheduled and it's in the morning, so i have the rest of the day to take care of all the other things i have to do.
i called benford tonight and he actually answered! we had a really great conversation. we talked about my starting a pep band of some sort on campus, and i am really going to work on it. just think how that would look on my resume!! i've noticed recently that he is talking to me more like an equal, and dare i say, a colleague, rather than a student. he was telling me things about marching band and directors and all kinds of stuff. and it wasn't the goofy, random stuff that we usually discuss. this conversation had a point and it went somewhere. and the more i learn i find i can talk to him almost like a colleague too. gosh, imagine what that would be like, to call him a colleague someday. gosh! and he made me aware again that that is realistically only three years away. three years from now i could potentially be starting my own classroom. scary to think about.
so overall, things have been fantastic. i'm back at school, loving it, and looking forward to so many things. hopefully i'll be able to write again soon, keep things updated.
adios for now!
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
i'm wondering
i haven't done anything of real excitement the past couple of days... i helped at my church's food pantry yesterday, which makes me feel good. people from the county can come and depending on the number of people they are getting food for, we will give them all kinds of pantry items, from canned food to drinks to pasta. i helped people as they walked through the shelves, picking what they wanted and how much they could have. everyone i helped was so appreciative and kind. one man in particular, it was his first time there and he was obviously mexican or puerto rican or something. i got to take him through the pantry. he said to me - "i can't speak english so good. it's hard for me." and i just told him he was fine, i was trying to help. it just about broke my heart. he was getting food for six people. SIX! and that just makes me think of all the people out there who aren't getting help, don't know about these things. another lady came through, and i recognized her from various hot meals and things with other churches downtown. she was just getting food for herself. she told me that she was having trouble finding a job, but was "doing the Lord's work". and i realized -- those couple of days helping in the food pantry have meant more to me than all the sunday mornings sitting in church. i've always kind of had trouble with the miracles and the healings and all that... i like to think jesus was more of an ancient pete seeger, singing about love and peace and that good stuff. it's hard for me to believe in something i have no connection to, besides blind faith. i mean, i know that's what church is all about, but it's tough for me. but the food pantry gives me something concrete to hold on to. i feel like i can really make a difference, i can really DO something. we all graduated high school, had all these dreams of changing the world, going out and doing grand things. but what have any of us really accomplished? what have I accomplished? went to school, paid too much money for education, took some classes. whoo hoo. but right now - this very second - not in four years, when i graduate with a piece of paper and start looking for a job -- right now -- i can help people. just by simply showing up at my church in the morning and giving some cans of food to anyone who walks through the door.
that's all.
i am getting ready to go on a "cheering up" mission.
peace!
that's all.
i am getting ready to go on a "cheering up" mission.
peace!
Sunday, August 02, 2009
up and away
Updates!!
wednesday was the dave matthews band. holy crap it was sooooo amazing.
i have no words. i still sound like a man because i was screaming and singing and cheering and all that. i fell in love with dave matthews band all over again. i know that sounds wierd, but all i have been listening to is Dave. :)
thursday, for once i actually didn't have plans to do something. however, brittany texted me and asked if i was interested in going to see harry potter at the drive in. So i texted the rest of the crew, and only collin responded. it ended up being collin, brittany and i going to see the movie. firstly, i got us lost, because we took the wrong road and had to turn around. and - while we were turning around, collin had a little bit of trouble turning in a driveway, mistaking the gas and brake... let's just say he was really shaken up and there's a nice 6 inch scrape on the front of his bumper!! anyway, he finally turned on his gps (why he didn't do that to begin with is beyond me) and we got there alright. he actually paid for my ticket because i didn't have any cash, just plastic. the movie itself was alright. it was one of my favorite books, and i felt they could have done a LOT more with it. they left out a lot of backstory which i think is kind of important to the whole thing. Not that it was bad... it just could have been better. ah well. collin took us home, and for not having any plans and dreading being bored at home, things turned out pretty well.
friday, jessica took me to an indians game. her dad got tickets from his work for club seats. and holy crap, that's like a whole new world to me! i had no idea there was this giant room with buffet lines, and you can just go up and get whatever you want. they had everything from pork loin to pasta to burgers, fries and hotdogs. they even had their own ice cream line!! we were kind of weary there for a while, because wood let up two runs in the 9th inning, so we went into extra innings. and FIVE hours later, the indians won, 6 to 5!
i was screaming when they got that final hit. after the game, they had a tribute to Tom Hamilton, who has been a radio announcer for the Tribe for 20 years now. they set fireworks to some of his greatest calls. i thought it was really cool cause those guys don't get a lot of credit but Hamilton is so likeable and one of the best announcers around. we headed home and i didn't get home until about 1:30.
saturday, my parents and i had plans to go to the racetrack because it was Night Under Fire. my poor dad wasn't feeling good so he ended up staying home, but my mom and i went and we had a really good time. my mom got to go down on the starting line for the first time with my sister-in-laws' brothers (they have dragsters). we pretty much spent the day roaming around and being in awe of all the cars and stuff, haha. we were worried that we would have to wait in line to get out of the parking lot for a while, but it wasn't too bad and we got home about 12:30.
and that's about it. this morning we got up to go to church... went to brunch... visited my grandma... i took a 3 hour nap... woo!!
wednesday was the dave matthews band. holy crap it was sooooo amazing.
i have no words. i still sound like a man because i was screaming and singing and cheering and all that. i fell in love with dave matthews band all over again. i know that sounds wierd, but all i have been listening to is Dave. :)
thursday, for once i actually didn't have plans to do something. however, brittany texted me and asked if i was interested in going to see harry potter at the drive in. So i texted the rest of the crew, and only collin responded. it ended up being collin, brittany and i going to see the movie. firstly, i got us lost, because we took the wrong road and had to turn around. and - while we were turning around, collin had a little bit of trouble turning in a driveway, mistaking the gas and brake... let's just say he was really shaken up and there's a nice 6 inch scrape on the front of his bumper!! anyway, he finally turned on his gps (why he didn't do that to begin with is beyond me) and we got there alright. he actually paid for my ticket because i didn't have any cash, just plastic. the movie itself was alright. it was one of my favorite books, and i felt they could have done a LOT more with it. they left out a lot of backstory which i think is kind of important to the whole thing. Not that it was bad... it just could have been better. ah well. collin took us home, and for not having any plans and dreading being bored at home, things turned out pretty well.
friday, jessica took me to an indians game. her dad got tickets from his work for club seats. and holy crap, that's like a whole new world to me! i had no idea there was this giant room with buffet lines, and you can just go up and get whatever you want. they had everything from pork loin to pasta to burgers, fries and hotdogs. they even had their own ice cream line!! we were kind of weary there for a while, because wood let up two runs in the 9th inning, so we went into extra innings. and FIVE hours later, the indians won, 6 to 5!
i was screaming when they got that final hit. after the game, they had a tribute to Tom Hamilton, who has been a radio announcer for the Tribe for 20 years now. they set fireworks to some of his greatest calls. i thought it was really cool cause those guys don't get a lot of credit but Hamilton is so likeable and one of the best announcers around. we headed home and i didn't get home until about 1:30.
saturday, my parents and i had plans to go to the racetrack because it was Night Under Fire. my poor dad wasn't feeling good so he ended up staying home, but my mom and i went and we had a really good time. my mom got to go down on the starting line for the first time with my sister-in-laws' brothers (they have dragsters). we pretty much spent the day roaming around and being in awe of all the cars and stuff, haha. we were worried that we would have to wait in line to get out of the parking lot for a while, but it wasn't too bad and we got home about 12:30.
and that's about it. this morning we got up to go to church... went to brunch... visited my grandma... i took a 3 hour nap... woo!!
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