today was the first day of classes, things went well, nothing majorly awesome so i won't waste time talking about all that nonsense.
what i wanted to write about may seem inconsequential to most people... but for some reason it really affected me.
i went to play racketball with lauren and brien this evening. we played for almost 2 hours, and you can bet all of us were pretty pooped after we finished. so we decided to go to sonic to get something to cool down.
on the way, lauren was fiddling with her ipod and came across the song Defying Gravity from the musical Wicked. i'm not very familiar with the song or play, so i just kind of listened. but brien and lauren totally belted it out, sing like no one's listening kind of stuff. so we're just cruising along, jamming to the song and heading to sonic.
and all of a sudden - i'm crying.
first of all, i don't like crying in front of people so i hardly ever do it. and i'm uncontrollably leaking tears. wtf?! i mean, it's like the quintessential college picture... playing some game with your best buddies, singing your hearts out to a fantastic song in the car, and on your way to get ice cream. i think if someone could have taken a picture at that moment we could have marketed it and made billions!
i think part of it is that some emotional stuff has happened in the recent past, and i didn't really ever cry about stuff. oh yeah i cursed and kicked things and pouted and vowed revenge and became nostalgic and sad, but i realized that earlier tonight i was crying tears of fricking JOY.
it really shook me.
sorry, i just really had a "girl" moment, as katalin would say, i just needed to write it down i think. i'm still shaking my head.
jeez life is complicated.
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It's funny you should find the song Defying Gravity in particular...
There is a television show of the same name (ABC, Sundays at 10/9c) that played an episode called "Rubicon" on Sunday. I watched it. Now, the premise of the TV show is that there is an international crew of astronauts aboard a vessel called the Antares (this is in 2051) who embark on a six-year mission through the Solar System. In "Rubicon" they cross their own Rubicon (i.e., the point of no return, where they can no longer do a direct abort.) Part of the episode was that they had to create a time capsule that would be flung out to space, and that everybody had to give up something important to them for it. (It was revealed afterward that the guy in charge of it had only flung out an empty container and gave everyone back their belongings, but Donner went into the airlock and threw the baseball of his old girlfriend [who was one of two astronauts who died on the Mars mission of which he was a part] out of it anyway because he had moved on.) At the end, they played this song that immediately moved me.
Unfortunately, I didn't know what the song was called, so I tried to Google the lyrics and the television show. Once I realized that I had heard the lyrics wrong, I quickly found the name of the song I had heard ("Everything I Build" by the Stills).
I knew I had to hear more of this awesomeness, so I went on YouTube. Apparently, I was not alone in seeing the song on the show and looking it up, because a bunch of people in the comments said the exact same thing. (I'm wondering now if somebody created the video for that express purpose once he/she saw that it was on the show.)
Anyway, I listened to the song via the video about ten times...and then I suddenly start crying. The song captured how I was feeling perfectly! Here I am, (literally) over a thousand miles from anything familiar, and I don't know which end is up, and I come across this song.
Dang.
Different, but the same, I guess.
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