i smile because i'm fine

thought i would blog, since it has been a bit, and i have been busy.

first off, i finally got to talk to Mr. B. halleluia!!! we had a really good talk. i had asked him if he ever got flak from people when he was in college about his choice of profession ... because i am experiencing that now. when i tell people that i want to be a band director and return to the ehspmb, they basically laugh in my face. i dont understand why people dont respect the fact that i am trying to do something i truly love and wish to do. i dont want to spend my life dreading going to work or not enjoying myself. i think that is pathetic and a waste. i cant even imagine what i would do if not teach. i cant picture myself doing anything else. the thing i love about teaching is that you have the ability to affect the future, through your students. most (if not all) of the people who have had a profound impact on my life have been teachers. anyway, back to Mr. B. he told me to brush it off. and told me that one of the noblest professions is teaching ... although it isn't paid like it. he also said that we were kind of going along the same path - its just that i am starting and he is near the end. it was really great to hear ... i think i knew that all along, but i needed to hear it from him.

this past weekend was homecoming. a very big production, i was surprised. i helped out at the family fun fest, where all the alumni come with their kids and do stuff. circle k was doing face painting. it was really AWESOME (sarcasm) because our booth was in the sun, and all of our paints were melting! there was also the homecoming parade. this really pisses me off - the gay straight alliance made a float for the parade. the night before, somebody set it on fire. how malicious can you get?? that just disgusts me. and what a way to spread bad press about the university. i cannot believe that someone would come to a liberal arts campus and be so ... mindless. i also bought a really cute shirt for the band concert but didnt wear it because it was short-sleeved and i didnt want to be "risque". i will wear it next time, though.

so yeah, like i said our first band concert was yesterday. i think we did really well. there were no huge mistakes that i could tell, and dr. j was just smiling the whole time when he was conducting. i really liked the concert overall. we got a standing ovation at the end, bwahahaha.

so i am just chilling down here in the basement = laundry. fun stuff. i put it off for a while, and i shouldnt have stuffed the one full of my jeans, but oh well. it should actually be time to move them to the dryer soon. oops - i just spotted the lightswitch. i am sitting in half darkness because i couldn't find the lightswitch. oh well. i like the darkness-ish. plus i dont want to freak out the creepy guy working on the broken elevator. it was creepy enough that he just stared at me when i came down with my clothes. ew.

i can't wait to go home this weekend. its fall break, which means i will get some extra time. and it is senior show, so maybe this time we won't crash and i will actually get to see the show!! and i am getting my hair cut. short again, probably. it has gotten really long, almost as long as i had it at the longest point. it is annoying. chop chop! and the fam is getting together at aunt lisa's for a casserole party. this might be the last time that i get to see grandma before she goes to florida. and monday i get to have the second dose of gardisil. i am SO not looking forward to that. it makes me dizzy and slightly nauseous. and i am out of it for the rest of the day, and it feels like the incredible hulk punched me in the arm. and i am heading back tuesday, because my mom has to work that day. oh well. at least i will get some more time. not like parade of bands, where i was only here for a day and a half. and maybe this time i will not have to drive through a hurricane, lol.