GREAT.

life is awesome. so great. REALLY.
[sarcasm.]

how come, when everything is going soooo well, when i finally feel as if i've got myself under control, when things are finally rolling my way, something comes along and decapitates me? just rips my freaking head off. thanks, life. thanks so much. i really appreciate all the breaks you've thrown my way, all the wonderful things you've done for me.

oh, and thanks also to those of you who do the same things for me that life does. thanks for throwing those wicked curveballs my way and see me fumble around, cause we all know i'm oh-so-graceful. thanks for making me question everything. and thanks for making me question myself. i bet you're dancing around in your fabulous little life right now, enjoying all those things you've deprived me of. great. go ahead, celebrate. hooray for frivolity. i wish you'd see the pain you've caused (even though most of it i brought on myself in the first place, stupid me). way to go. but the least you could've done is let me get back up again before throwing me under the bus. AGAIN.

i wonder if you know who you are?


this morning was fantastic! i woke up thinking that it was going to be a wonderful day! and now? i'm going to bed, resisting the urge to break small fragile objects within arm's reach.

YAY FOR LIFE!!!! LET'S TOAST TO ITS MARVELOUSNESS!!

i'm really not trying to be a pathetic attention-getter. i promise. since i can't pick up the phone right now and call the people i need to talk to the most, i resort to posting angry facebook notes and blog entries.

i had such dreams. such plans. such hope. such excitement!
annnnnnnnnnnnnd... no. not anymore.

stabby rip stab stab.

i hate to think that i'm starting to become a pessimist.




i need ice cream.