was I a fool to think?

do you ever get the feeling that you don't mean anything to anyone? or someone in particular? even though you try your hardest, no matter how hard you work, love, or feel, you're doomed to never be good enough? i want to do so much more, make a bigger impact, talk more, love more, be more, and i feel like i just can't. i feel like i don't have a connection with this someone, even though we do, and they've said so. i'm jealous of the other people because i think they're more special than i am. i can't help wondering how much this someone might think of me after i've gone and they've moved on. i don't want to be needy, and sometimes it feels like i'm being that way. but i don't know how to stop.