swish and flick

Forgive the long hiatus. The past few weeks have been absolutely hell. Both academically and mental-health-wise, I was on a path covered by gray clouds. I'm not sure I'm completely past it... sometimes, like today, things will be really happy. And there are other moments where I feel totally alone and frankly just sad. This is not a cry for help. I am really just trying to understand what the heck is going on.

Part of it had to do with the fact that I had been losing touch with my mentor and teacher friend. I've talked about him in past posts, so if you're really that curious go read them. Our relationship has changed since I'm in an actual class with him and he has really pushed me to the next level. And often I felt like I was losing my grip on him as a person. I understand we're both busy, we've got to-do lists that are a mile long and deadlines to meet. I am not even sure I can articulate what he means to me. But we haven't been having those wonderful, insightful and inspiring talks like we used to. I miss them. Today was good, though. I stopped in and we chatted for close to an hour about this past weekend which I will talk about shortly. We didn't talk hardly at all about class or assignments or deadlines. It was so lovely.

So this past weekend I finally got to go home for Easter. I realized that Easter is probably one of my favorite holidays... none of that gift-giving Hallmark crap beyond a little chocolate or a few jelly beans. on the ride home from school, mom and i talked about the general dysfunction in our family. i learned a lot about my dad's past and his struggles. which makes me a little more patient with him now...

and it was baby Ava's first Easter!!



she hated that bonnet.

welp, it's off to bed for me. got an early day tomorrow at the high school, and a structured interview after that. 'ho boy.